"I'm swimming, I'm swimming!"

Up stream. I'm swimming up stream. The swimming portion of my triathlon training is kicking me in the behind. Luckily, though, I have two friends who have swam competitively so I have some new found insight. Realized I was breathing all wrong. I was holding my breath under water so that when I came up for air, I was trying to both exhale and inhale in a very short amount of time; therefore, supplying me with little or no air. So now what I must do is breathe out when my head is under water so I can breathe in when it comes up. And not only that, but I also need to find my own rhythm. Will I do two strokes on one side and breath...maybe 3, or will I alternate sides. Don't yet know.

And not only am I swimming up stream with the aquatic portion of my training, I'm swimming up stream keeping it recorded. In the past two weeks, Fitness 4 All (F4A) has exploded onto the scene. Thanks to the article in the Grunion Gazette along with an email I sent to a local running club, we're getting volunteers and support. Now, not only am I off and running, literally, I'm also off and running with F4A. Lots to do in getting the program design down on paper, shopping for grants, planning and organizing a 5k fund raiser.....big stuff. Definitely, there's nowhere to go but up!

Wish I could say I have utter total and complete confidence in myself as I face my first triathlon as well as making F4A a success, but I can't. There's a lot of self doubt going on, but I suppose that's a good thing. If life were easy and steady-going all the time, I suspect it wouldn't be all that much fun.

Back to the triathlon. I did get in a 12.7 mile bike ride on Sunday the 12th so that's just 4 miles shy of what I need to do; however, the 17 miles I'm going to cover is on fire roads with hills so pretty soon I'm gonna have to switch-up my training to that level.

All in all, I question myself. Wondering why I'm doing what I'm doing. I begin to obsess over it working myself into a frazzle up and until such a time I begin to listen to what I'm saying out loud to others and then I start to actually believe myself. It's about feeling alive. Feeling I'm working toward something. Not feeling stagnant. New experiences create new opportunities; they nurture my soul and all worrying, obsessing aside, brings me peace.